Continued from Yesterday.
No Longer a Cop
After law
enforcement, I went back to working at the bookstore part time while studying
for the LSAT. All that time hoping that
my experience as a cop would translate well to law school (it didn’t) and
ultimately, I did take the test.
I say this
with no hyperbole, the hardest part of the LSAT test was writing the honor code
out by hand in cursive, which is required.
I had not written anything in cursive in my adult life. In fact, my hand writing is all capital
letters in block type so that it can be read with ease by anyone. Cursive is one of my personal bugbears and I
see it as a blight on education, a tremendous waste of time that has zero
value. My hand cramped, I couldn’t
actually finish writing the damn thing with any legibility, and I was the last
person to finish the task, holding up the room.
I took the
LSAT, and did fine, well enough to later be accepted to Law School. This is a fun little turn of fate because it
is another test I barely studied for. I
bought a test booklet with 400 questions, I did 40 in total, spending about 3
hours overall pondering the questions and looking over the answers. The rest of the time I played Sudoku and read
science fiction novels.
I later
dropped out of Law School after spending a year there. It was an expensive way to figure out that I
was not destined to spend my life filling out paperwork with really tight and
precise use of commas and quoting other people’s arguments. I am getting ahead of myself.
Grad School
Rather than
apply to Law School first I wanted to pursue a regular Master’s degree. Ultimately, my goal was to go abroad with
some kind of charity or NGO. I looked
into the International Affairs programs around the state, first at Florida
International and then at Florida State.
What was the tipping point for the one I focused on and eventually
attended? The application process for
FSU was easier.
When I
entered the program, I did a poor job of managing my time, I was still working
part time at a bookstore, a decision I look back on as a waste of time, and I
did not prioritize getting the most difficult aspect of the degree done (for me
that is the foreign language portion, that might not be an issue for you, but
it is for me).
I got the
opportunity to study abroad in Turkey (which used up all of my savings from
being a cop), and was sold on doing Urban and Regional Planning as a joint
program. The Planning tie-in provided
what I was really looking for with International Affairs via a Peace Corp
program which would have taken me abroad to work on development projects. Again, I did not manage my time and
priorities well as I did not commit to the idea completely and just dipped my
toe in.
My second
year of Graduate school, after returning from studying in Turkey I was
miserable. I felt like I was going in a
dozen directions, I was anxious, and I was obnoxious. I almost immediately wanted to bail out on
Planning and again tried to go on a new more focused direction, I applied to
Law School and jumped in.
Law School
Law School
was paradoxically one of the more rewarding parts of my life in that I met a
lot of good friends, so much so that I feel their association with me elevates
my reputation while they are taking a bit of a ding to theirs. But, aside from those friends I was awful at
Law School. This might be my own
personal philosophy getting in the way but I often disagreed with the logical
founding of many Supreme Court cases, and I often became rankled by the focus
on cases rather than focusing on the laws themselves.
To me,
logic is an absolute, case law seems to take to its core that you have to back
up your own logic with the opinions of other more important and credible people
otherwise your logical founding is not right.
I see this as a logical fallacy called, “argument from authority”. This is more than likely a distortion of what
Case Law is. Obviously, I did not grasp
the concept. I left Law School after
year one, once more taking on an entirely new direction.
MAAPP
I entered
the Political Science Department. Couple floors up from Planning, couple more
from International Affairs and entered into the first program that I could get
my head around completely and managed to commit to. Master’s in Applied American Politics and
Policy. Research political opponents,
research how to message to constituents, research people you want to ask for
money, and then build a message.
It is a
cynical, practical, and functional use of political science. It is one that I managed to get a hold
one. It is the first Master’s Degree I
completed and I was done after 15 months of taking every class I could fit and
going to an internship which showed me several levels of field work in a
campaign. The internship by itself could
fill several blogs with interesting material and I would go so far as to say it
would make an interesting TV show.
Completing
this degree was my first real accomplishment as an adult. An adulthood that was previously rudderless
and full of fail. This kind of turned
things.
Returning to Planning and International Affairs
I was able
to go back to Planning and International Affairs. I did so initially to pad my schedule while
finishing my MAAPP degree but then came to realize how little course work I
needed to do to actually complete the degrees.
Fun fact, you have seven years to finish a program, at this point I was
half way thru year 5 and was 90% done with one degree and 80% done with the
other.
I took aim
at the Peace Corp program again but as luck would have it ISIS was in full
swing and many programs in Morocco and the Philippines and anywhere that had a
Muslim population became dicey. I was
aiming for Albania, but with the number of positions shrinking, there were more
qualified applicants than there were open positions and I was not chosen. I do see this as a missed opportunity in my
life, I know that having multiple years of practical experience tied into my
graduation would have been immensely useful, but things happen.
I decided
to keep hammering here at home. I
committed to foreign language courses; took the lab/studio/final project that
would have been replaced by the Peace Corp but now was back on the table; took
all the required classes that would have been replaced by the Peace Corp; and
gained 40 pounds in 5 months, turning into a slug of a human being from stress.
I actually
did not pass a foreign language class and had that hanging over my head for too
long as it became the LAST CLASS needed for me to get all my degrees. But before that I needed an internship
(another thing that would have been replaced by the Peace Corp) so I started to
apply.
Continued again in a third part tomorrow.
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